Sandgaze of SkyClan

Name: Sand -> Sandpaw -> Sandgaze

Age: 54 Moons

Gender: Male

Clan: SkyClan

Rank: Deputy

Appearance: A large, dark cream tabby tom with dark green eyes. He has numerous scars, most notably a torn ear and a scar along his throat causing him to be mute.

Personality:

As a young cat, Sand was a naive and oblivious cat who believed everything he was told. He didn’t understand why his father would say he loved him and then ignore him and lash out, but he continued to believe that he was loved by his father. After his mother died, he quickly however became distrusting and fearful, and only trusted his sister. His biggest fear was that he’ll lose someone he cares for again, and he still is nervous about cats he cares for getting into dangerous situations. When he first joined the Clan, he felt like there was a pressure on him to be the best warrior he could since he feared that his Clanmates dislike him for coming from outside the Clan, even though there were other cats who came from outside the Clan and they’re respected members of the Clan. Due to his fears of being disliked and feeling like he needed to be the best warrior he could, he ended up becoming a decently respected warrior of the Clan, and he realized he didn’t have to constantly be trying to prove himself, and that cats who truly cared for him would care for him no matter his origins.

After he realized he no longer had to prove himself, Sandgaze became a typically calm tom who respects his Clan and tries to solve problems peacefully as possible. He became a bit more friendly with the cats of the Clan, and he finally felt like he had a place he belonged. He still misses his sister, and he hopes she’ll come and find him someday.

History:

Sand was born to a loner named Shred, and a kittypet named Ruby. He lived with his father and his sister, Rabbit. Shred taught his children how to hunt, fight, and do some minor healing abilities in the wilderness, but he was disconnected to the emotional and social development of his children. Most of Sand’s social and emotional skills were taught by his mother, who he was allowed to visit on occasion. Sand believed his life to be a mostly happy one, which made sense given how oblivious he was to how much his father obviously disliked his mate and children. 

One night, when Sand was about 9 moons old, Rabbit told Sand that they should find their mother and run away from Shred. Sand wondered why she would want to escape, when their father “loved” them and showed them how to survive. Rabbit shook her head and told him that he could stay if he wanted, but he couldn’t remain oblivious forever. Sand decided he would run away with them because he cared about his mother and sister a lot and didn’t want to live without them. So Sand and Rabbit told Ruby they wanted to run away to somewhere far away, and that they could take care of her. Ruby begrudgingly agreed, as she also was mostly oblivious to Shred’s dislike for his mate and children. So they chose a direction and began hurrying away, but Shred found them and was outraged when he learned they were attempting to run away. He attacked the three cats, leaving Sand with a shredded ear and Rabbit with a nearly ripped off tail. Sand and Rabbit barely made it out alive, but only because Ruby took the attacks from Shred to save them.

Sand and Rabbit wandered around, meeting many rogues and loners and getting into fights.

One of these fights left a particularly strong mark on the two. Sand and Rabbit were tired from wandering around aimlessly for a few moons, and they were ready to look for a place to settle down and begin their lives again. However, they came across a couple of loners fighting, and things were getting particularly violent. Sand, out of mercy, tried to get between the two cats, but they slashed his throat and tore out his vocal chords, and he ran off, and eventually stumbled onto SkyClan territory. After receiving treatment for all his wounds, he decided to join SkyClan.